I’ve always been impulsive. I am the action girl! Don’t think, just act, react! It served me so well most of my life… in high school I was involved in sports, clubs + activities and in college was always pioneering the next adventure with my friends. It was easy to be impulsive. I got a lot of stuff done. But now that I’m officially “adulting” (our definition of adulting is becoming parents, that’s when I really had to get it together)… so now in this phase of life, being impulsive is not such a fun trait. In fact it is down right debilitating. It’s not cool to be impulsive when you have two little humans who are way more reactive, spontaneous, irrational + crazy than you who have more of a right to be than you! Now it looks more like legit ADD.
I recently had to replace the screen on my cell phone which required me to leave it at the Apple store for a whole hour. They told me to come back at 5:15pm. No problem I thought- I would just wander round the mall. Holy cow was that hard! First of all, I had no idea what time it was because I use my phone as a watch, second I probably reached for that thing like 20 times out of sheer habit knowing full well that it was not with me and third I had this odd feeling of being cut off. Cut off from what? I decided it was time to seriously take inventory of how I am using technology in my life.